Hiya all, hope you are well!
Thought I would start this post with a bit of internal reflection.
On past attempts, I started of extremely motivated, and then after a few weeks, look for cheats, ie, deliberately not eat anything for hours before weighing. Or deliberately eat something wholly unhealthy as soon as the weigh in had been done.
I would lose motivation, simply going through the motions of improving my health, allowing the naughties to over take more and more regularly, and then panic when the weigh in day loomed!
Paul and I would go for walks, but more often than not I would be looking for an excuse not to go.
The only aim I had was the weekly weigh in. That’s all that mattered. That was the measure of my success.
This time round, what a difference! My measure now is not the scales, it is feeling pleased each day I eat well. It is feeling the pride after I complete some exercise. It is the acceptance without regret when I slip. It is the lack of guilt. It is the knowledge that I am winning my battle. This is the mental reason for my success.
I still love the scales, I still want to see the number go down. But now I know if I don’t lose weight, my body is still a little more healthy than the week before. That is now my motivation.
I still can’t quite believe how determined I feel. Even after two months (a long time for me!). There is still a niggle in the back of my mind that I’m going to fail, lose motivation, yoyo my way back to my more unhealthy self. I can’t get rid of that feeling, so I need to learn to embrace it, allow that feeling, that fear to be a reason to carry on.
All in all, I’m pleased with myself. I am winning, even with the occasional naughty meals/treats/drinks.
So on that note, how has the practical me been today?
Food – 28g nuts, 160g fruit (Black grapes, blackberries and strawberries), 1 hard boiled egg, huge tub of salad.
Tuna with rice, peas and sweetcorn for dinner, proper Greek yoghurt, seeds and maple syrup for afters.
I’ve been worried I’m not getting enough carbs, so I’m adding in an afternoon banana as of tomorrow.
Fluid – 200ml milk, 1l water, 3 teas and 1 can Pepsi max.
Exercise – couch to 5k this morning. Stretching programme this evening.
So a pleasing day 😊
Here’s to many more good days for me and for you.
Goodnight
Trying to lose! 
Yes!! It’s all about your effort and the process. Results will come if you’re committed to you! Great job.
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Thank you 😊
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Nice job Jo 🙂 I finally got back to the gym today after nearly 3 months of depression because of my dad’s illness/death and crazy overtime at my job. Felt great to work out again. I originally had a goal to be reach half my weight by 50, sadly I predict that won’t happen now. I set that goal two years ago but a lot of shit just got in the way. I’m setting a smaller goal to weigh 50 lbs less by my 50th come April. You’re blog is motivating me to stay on track 🙂
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You’ve had a lot to deal with, it’s tough at the best of times. Good job on getting back to the gym 👍 it’s good to have moveable goals, that way you can keep motivated without feeling as though you’ve failed, so well done you, your finding your stride again! Btw, my short term goal was to lose 28lb by this weekend. Not happening. So changed to 20lb, that’s not gonna happen either 🤣. Now I’m working to lose 2lb this week so I can claim 18lb by this weekend! It’s all good though, that will still be 18lb lighter, and much more importantly to me, healthier and fitter too. I’m calling that a success 😊
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Any loss no matter how small is a success 😀
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I’m also trying to get the mental side right. It’s tough, but finding the balance is healthy.
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You’re so right, it’s hard I think because society has always been so negative about overweight people, rather than fighting for understanding the attitude in general is ‘how do they let themselves get like that’ meaning people like me already have a negative frame of mind before we even start! But you are so right, this is an all round journey, so we do need to feel both mentally and physically balanced- much more chance of success that way 😊
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Know exactly how your talking here, you just put into words all we say to ourselves, I do read your posts, just sometimes takes me a while and oh thank you, think you were my good luck charm last week, the needle went straight in my vien 1st time lol, and not much of a bruise either.
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Excellent – i hate bendy needles 😀 my veins are ok, but my daughter’s always have a habit of hiding, and Paul, well he just bruises as though the needle had a fight and won! :D, thanks for reading my posts – I’m just amazed they’re interesting enough to be read 😀
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