3rd Oct 2019 – oh dear!

Hi all, hope you’ve had or are having a good day 😊

Today… hmmmm….

Ok, so my niece came round today, it’s a rare treat. She popped round to give me my birthday pressie just in case I don’t see her before my birthday.

We got take away, and no chance for exercise, because of time and because I’m in more pain than usual on the run up to meltdown week. And my coccyx is killing me!

So, to business…

Food – daytime food spot on. It was my usual, although I forgot my banana again.

Dinner was burger and chips. I only ate a handful of chips, but the burger was so big I was stuffed quickly, so a handful of chips is not something to be proud of.

I have not popped a picture here as that’s not fair to anyone who might be hankering after one.

Exercise – I did do stretches this morning, but nothing tonight.

Fluid – 200ml milk, 0.5l water, several teas, 1 Pepsi max, 1 full fat Dr pepper.

Hmmmm…. not a good day.

Our foraging day has been deferred to spring, but I still have tomorrow off.

And I’ll be going to lunch tomorrow with my mum, sister and daughter. Don’t know where, all I can hope is that there is something tasty and healthy on the menu.

I’m in two minds at the moment, do I give this week up as a bad joke, or do I do as much damage limitation as possible? Either way, I expect the scales to be bad, both on weight and fat measurements.

And there will be birthday cake next week.

I will try for damage limitation.

I will remember as per Monique’s husband, this is a marathon and not a sprint.

I will not be angry with myself or negative.

I will understand I can get back on track!

So, that’s where I am, floundering a little in negativity, and desperately trying to know, really know that right now is a few shitty hormones and bad choices, and that I’ll be back to normal in a couple of days or about a week! This moment does NOT define my lifestyle change!

Does it sound as if I’m desperately trying to convince myself?

Hopefully tomorrow I’ll be feeling less painful and less grumpy.

If you’ve managed to read this far, I’m sorry for the rather gloomy post, and thank you 😊

Good night