Since last we spoke….

Oh dear, where on Earth do I start!

Firstly an apology, it has been way too long, I very nearly didn’t write this post, not sure what I’m worried about, perceived failure maybe? I don’t know. However, I know that when I get my backside into swing again, this will be a very vital part of my story, and WHEN i succeed I will have documented the good, bad and ugly.

Ok let’s get on with the TONNES of confessions

Well, there have been terrible food choices:

• Macdonalds
• Five Guys
• 2 x Chinese take aways
• lots of rubbish buffet foods
• 2 x Birthday cakes
• chocolates
• crisps
• Alcohol
• Subway

And that’s just what I remember!

Yep, I guess I’ve not only fallen off the wagon but I’m sitting in the road waving it off!

There has been healthy evening meals, and healthy daytime food, but the weekends have been a HUGE let down to myself!

And there’s still Christmas itself to get through.

I have even been too scared to weigh myself, doing rather crappily for someone who promised myself a warts and all journal.

On top of this, MAJOR monthly meltdown, aches and pains in every bit of me, including a very annoying headache which just won’t shift 😦

I’ve also been dealing with a bit of depression. Luckily it’s sparodic, and if I get myself in gear I can stave off the worst of it, but there have been some moments where I have sat or laid there in abject misery, crying for absolutely NO. GOOD. REASON. Well, not no good reason exactly, just made up reasons…. I sometimes wonder if brains are a good idea 😀

And ask me, I dare you! Am I prepared for Christmas???? NOOOOOOO!

And why does time not exist for me????? it’s disappearing way too fast! I feel like I’m running my arse off and going nowhere!

So, where does this leave me. OK, well, I’m not worried about my healthy me journey, yes it’s failing right now, yes, I’ve lost the fight at the moment, but I am still thoroughly confident that in a couple of weeks I’ll be back to my good old routine.

In the meantime, it’s been interesting to note that my face is getting a bit chubbier again, and my jeans aren’t as lose on me as they were. Isn’t it odd how I had to look hard for the good changes before, and yet I can spot the lbs going on very easily!

It’s also been interesting to note the stairs are getting a little more difficult again.

Strangely, given my current moody swings, I haven’t felt at all disheartened regarding my journey. I know this is a major glitch, but I also know this isn’t me giving up, no one knows me better than me, and it’s good knowing I’m not waiting for a tomorrow that will never come, I have no need to give myself excuses, I know that I will win my prize 🙂

So this is me, for now, not really proving a shining example of health, but putting it out there… The glitch is not the end of the journey, just a short break!

I’ll TRY to update, however in all honesty, I can’t guarantee a nightly update at the moment.