Trying to lose!

Lost my mojo – don’t want to slip back.

Hey all,

I’ve totally lost my mojo right now.

I’ve had several days of not eating as well as I want to (today is included, I’ve munched my way through a cup cake with loads of icing, and had two teas with more half spoon sugar than normal).

I don’t feel good with myself, I feel I’ve let myself down. Big time. I feel disappointed, and right now I’m in that mood where I could very easily give up. That point where my mind is saying, f**k it, I don’t care!

It doesn’t help because my father in law is having a 70th birthday party on Saturday, so where as I would normally think I need to be careful throughout the week, and make sensible choices on Saturday night, right now I’m thinking, well what’s the point of trying, Saturday is gonna blow my efforts sky high!

This is not where I need to be.

What do I do?

I need an emergency plan.

So, for now, until I’m back in the swing of things, this is what I’m going to do.

Mindfulness – I need to stop eating and drinking without thought of consequence. Do I really need twice the amount of sugar in my teas? Do I really need any more flapjacks or mini choc cakes?
Positivity – I am naturally a positive person, but like most people when the negativity strikes I’m buggered! Somehow I need to keep reinforcing the positivity, and hopefully start believing in it.
Step by Step – I’m going to take each moment, each hour, each day as it comes, I’ll deal with each obstacle as it comes
Exercise – So fallen by the wayside! I’m going try and get my arse into gear and do a programme or a walk tonight, no matter how hard or easy, I’m just going to do it. I’ve sent Paul a message to let him know, he’ll understand I might need encouragement and will provide that.
Stop worrying – So, this week quite obviously is going to be a weight loss fail, I need to reconcile myself with that, it’s a fact, there’s nothing I can do about it. BUT – I have the opportunity to stop the rot. I mustn’t let this be a reason to slide further down the slippery slope

Ok, so I can try to do this, and drag myself out of the rabbit hole.

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Here are the things that worry me:

Saturday Party – this time, on this journey, I’ve managed on the whole to be healthy or healthier. I can do this again. My father in law has asked me to make a chilli con carni, I don’t like chilli con carni, but I can at least make it healthy and eat it anyway. I’ll have that with brown rice and that should help me try to manage not eating all the other stuff my mum in law will be cooking up.
Period – In the last couple of years, I’ve noticed my body starts getting very uncomfortable at least a week before I come on, and I get the painful coccyx now. I always think “this time I’m going to exercise through” but I don’t. I’m going to start getting the signs next week, I’ll resign myself to that. But hopefully I’ll be more positive and maybe more motivated.

No this week has not started well (my week starts Saturday), yes this Saturday is not going to be brilliant, and yes my body is going to start sabotaging me.

BUT – there are things I can control, I just need to believe in the end game, and keep working towards that.

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I have lost 23lb during my journey so far, I’ve done it because I want to do it. I want to continue. I need to continue.

So here we go…. first step, NO flap jack.

11th Nov 2019 – ok, the day could have been better!

Hey all, hope your Monday has been kind to you.

My day has been, well, not great!

I started well, but forgot it’s my work mate’s birthday, and bad Liz brought in mini flapjacks (I had two), mini choc bites (I had one), mini lamb pasties (I had two) and cup cakes (I had one). Hmmmm!!!!

I didn’t eat my salad or my fruit, and limited myself to two cups of tea during the day.

That might have been ok, but we had lamb left over from Saturday night, so that was dinner tonight.

So, summary of food and drink as follows:

Fluid – 200ml milk, 3 teas, 1 can Pepsi max, 1 glass of water.

Food – 28g natural nuts, 1 hard boiled egg, naughties.

Dinner – lamb, spuds, carrots, onion, sprouts and

mushrooms in gravy and mint sauce added.

exercise – walked to and from mums, but I cheated even on this! I walked across the road instead of walking upto and over the bridge! Less muscle work and less overall steps!

So, not good! Oh well, onwards and upwards, tomorrow will be better. In this for the long haul!

Hope you have a good week 😊

Night.

I am so lucky!

I started prepping our salads (made a couple if mistakes because I’m dog tired!)

Paul roused and came to help, so he’s done a few days of fruits, nuts and the eggs.

Then I walked back into the living room and found this!

Paul knows I’m trying to work on my dairy, and he knew I wouldn’t bother, so he just went ahead and made supper without me even noticing! Greek yoghurt with seeds and honey.

I am soooo lucky to have his support 😍

10th Nov 2019 – the weekend update – and a 3lb loss!

Evening all, hope you’ve all had a cracking weekend 😊

I’ll start with the good news – I lost 3lb last week – WOOHOO!

Ok, so now for the daily updates!

Friday – worked from home in the morning, and and 28g natural nuts and a hard boiled egg. Went to lunch with Paul and Amy after work. I have to say I prefer my usual salad from Harvester, and wont be going for healthy lunch at miller and carter again.

Mine is the salmon salad. Nice but harvester salad is cheaper and nicer!

Then we got ready for the funeral. The service was very nice.

That evening I had diet cokes, then a toast to Angie with a shot of her favourite tipple, and a shot with her daughter of Sambuca.

I did have a couple of sarnies and other buffet foods. But I did try to limit it.

When we got home I prepared the lamb ready for Saturday’s dinner.

So Friday, in regards to my health, didn’t go so bad.

Saturday – Paul and I had beans on toast for breakfast. We both almost gave in and had a macdonalds, but we are both pleased we we’re strong for ourselves and each other.

And after that we started going down hill.

We came home and did the housework in readiness for Paul’s parents coming over for the evening.

My mum in law loves lamb, so I did what seems to be becoming my speciality, kleftiko! Lamb of course is fatty, so the meal isn’t the healthiest.

I didn’t drink too much, but there was chocolate, crisps and salted nuts.

And it was a very, very late night. We played games and chatted until 4am this morning… I’m too old for this level of late nights!

Today – I started with healthier sausages in seedy bread and a bit of unhealthy bacon at about 11am.

Then we headed off to my sister in law, with cake, candles and presents for our niece who is 9 tomorrow. She loved her presents 😍

There was a lot of unhealthy food. My sister in law always cooks up too much, and I took full advantage.

We are now home, in peace and quiet, and I’m drinking a glass of full fat coke. I have to say, I’m not enjoying it! I prefer the taste of Pepsi max!

looking forward to a nice early night tonight. Paul’s eyes have closed as I write this, so as I watch David Attenborough on tv I’m gonna get sound effects of Paul’s snoring any minute now 🤣

So that’s my very brief update on the weekend. I’ll do prep for salads in a minute so I can start the week right.

Or maybe I’ll just snuggle up with Paul…

Night 🤗

7th Nov 2019 – a good food day, exercise still to do.

Hey all, driving has not been my friend today! It took me an hour to crawl the 7 miles to work, so I was late for the first time ever this morning. Then tonight, I did a full day on the office, so drove home in the dark… first time this winter.

Katie’s phoned to say the brake light on her moped has stopped working, so Paul is going to pick her up from work. I’ll do my exercises while he’s out.

I’ve now sorted what I’ll be wearing to tomorrow’s funeral. I was worried I had nothing to wear and would need to go shopping tomorrow afternoon between work and funeral. I’m glad that’s a pressure I don’t have.

Still left to do this evening, nails, brows, exercises and drink some fluid.

Remembered to do bills during day, so job jobbed on that front.

So, on to my report.

Food – 28g natural nuts, 1 hard boiled egg, 160g fruit, salad, extra orange.

Dinner – spag bol made over weekend and frozen, we had ravioli instead of normal pasta as it’s been loitering in the fridge for about a month!

I won’t be picking up the ravioli again, it was 400cals for half a pack!

Heres the link to that post if interested https://tryingtolose.food.blog/2019/11/03/cheap-nutritional-spag-bol/

So not a great food day (courtesy of the ravioli), but it wasn’t too bad as the mince bit is healthier than I would normally make.

Fluid – 200ml milk, 2 cups tea, 1 glass of water. I’ll have another 200ml milk and a glass of water within the next 90 minutes.

Exercise – I’m set to do 11min cardio and 15min strength today.

So what did I actually do? I did a new hasfit beginner HIIT programme, this was 25 minutes, then I did the 20min stretchy programme! YAY!! Go me 🤗

That’s it from me for now.

6th Nov 2019 – good day. Busy time coming up.

Hey all, hope you are well.

I’m going to struggle keeping up with you guys over the next few days. We have a funeral on Friday, my in-laws over on Saturday and visiting a birthday neice on Sunday. So please bear with me, I will get round to catching up on your posts, it’s just going to take me into next week.

I’ll try to keep posting my updates, but may end up doing a combined one until I’m back to normal.

So onto daily business!

Food – 28g natural nuts, 160g fruit, 1hard boiled egg, salad.

For dinner we had gammon with pineapple rings, oven cooked spuds and loads of mushrooms with a little bit of chopped up bacon. Dinner was huge, I was over run with mushrooms and there was a bit of bacon (about 1 rasher left over from liver last week) that needed eating.

Needless to say, we both left quite a bit of food!

Fluid – I’ve had two cups if tea today, and about. 5l water. I’ll hopefully be having about 400ml of milk through the next couple of hours. This will give me my daily calcium and fluid.

Exercise – I did the 37min intensive cardio today. Feeling quite good for it as well.

So that’s me for now.

Bye for now

5th Nov 2019 – a much better day!

Hey all,

Had a much calmer night sleep last night. Maybe Paul being at home isn’t so bad after all 🤣

Having said that, I was rudely woken an hour earlier than necessary because Paul hadn’t set his alarm back to 7!

Mum had warned me last night that she’d planned belly pork for tonight’s girl night, so to counter that I missed out some day food, and walked the long way round to mum’s. I say counter, more like lessen the damage 😉

I spoke to Amy today, and she’s enjoying her snack bags of fruit and nuts, she’s sounding very positive and I’m really proud of her for showing some care for herself.

Speaking of Amy, she started a different type of medication for her depression and anxiety, and it’s helping! Felt a bit touch and go for the first tenish days, but Amy is feeling a lot more settled! I’m relieved.

I’m pleased to report that Peter, my boss, has managed to get all the latex out of his hair after the Halloween competition last week, his face is still a bit red 🤣

Anyway, on to my important stuff!

Food – 28g natural nuts, salad, fruit. The nuts were eaten this afternoon instead of first thing. I wasn’t going to have them at all today given dinner, but they were needed this afternoon. It was that or sweeties! No egg though.

Dinner – belly pork, beetroot, potatoes and broccoli. I cut quite a bit of fat off, though not all.

Fluids – 400ml of milk (because I’m still struggling getting my dairy, and I knew I wouldn’t be having Greek yoghurt tonight). Glass of water and 4 cups of tea. Oh and half a can of Pepsi max at mum’s.

Exercise – as you know, I’ve been crap at getting back into my exercise. Today marks me starting again. Not from the beginning, but easing in, so I did the 7min cardio, and the 15 min strength programme. I am now using heavier weights so there is small progress.

And then I walked quickly to mum’s, taking the longer route. It’s odd, I walked to mum’s last night, and I felt like I was waddling, today felt like good striding.

So that’s my day, all in all I feel it’s been successful.

Just need to nag Paul now and make sure that alarm isn’t gonna wake me up at the ridiculous time of 6am 🤣

Night all

4th Nov 2019 – a very tired day

Hey all, hope you are well.

Last night was not good. I had nightmare after nightmare, and lots of loo stops for which I almost felt pathetically too scared to get out of bed for. Ridiculous!!! I’m 45 years old for crying out loud!

I do hope tonight is better. I’m sure it will be.

This has meant I’ve been exhausted all day, matchsticks would have been most welcome!

And why is my coccyx aching so much today?!?

Good news, Paul’s back home now. I’m looking forward to having a nice snuggle tonight 😊

Enough with my problems, let’s get on with some facts.

Food – 28g natural nuts, 160g fruits, 1hard boiled egg, salad.

Paul cooked up salmon with pasta for dinner.

We’re now enjoying some fruit.

Fluids – 2 x 200ml milk, 2 cups of tea, 0.5l water.

Exercise – 2 mile walk. This isn’t what I was hoping for, I was looking to get myself back to vigorous exercise, but I realised early on today that wouldn’t happen, so I made sure I walked to and from my mum’s tonight when going to put her bins out.

Here’s to hoping we all have a peaceful nights sleep.

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3rd Nov 2019 – What a fab day!

Evening all, hope you are all well, and have had a lovely weekend 🙂

Today has been yet another lovely day, Amy and I have had an exhausting but great mum and daughter day again today 🙂

To start off we had a healthy sausage bap for breakfast

Then we went off to the woods to have a nice amble and collect chestnuts.

Background here, I used to take Amy to these woods when she was just a little girl, we used to play hide and seek, have picnics (sarnies and crisps), pick blackberries, pick apples and collect chestnuts. We used to walk for ages, me showing Amy ferns unfurling in spring and turning brown in Autumn, pointing out mushrooms, Amy getting excited seeing all the squirrels running around.

They were lovely afternoons. It was beautiful revisiting a little piece of our past 🙂

Then we went shopping for all my salad stuff and fruits and nuts for Amy, as she would like to have healthier snack options. Together we then prepped several days worth of fruit and nuts for her and all mine and Paul’s daytime foods for the week.

Amy also got some porridge, which she has never prepared before, so she spent a few minutes making a porridge which we shared. To sweeten it, we added honey.

After that we made the recipe up for my Cheap & Nutritional blog posts, which was more timely than I anticipated as we needed to notate everything we were doing. We had a very healthy 2% fat turkey mince spag bol, and it was a lot more flavoursome than last weeks experiment, in fact we were very pleased with how it tasted and the quantity. This has now been loaded up as my first recipe 🙂

We tried and failed to make butternut squash crisps – they were either soggy or burnt OR BOTH 😀

And while I wrote up my recipe blog post, Amy prepared and roasted the chestnuts, which tasted GREAT!!!

I still have washing to do, and a kitchen to clean up – BOOOOO!

And as it’s 9.45pm, I’m thinking it’s going to be bed time way too soon.

I have so loved this weekend, it has been lovely doing lots of non stressful things, in my own time, and spending some wonderful time with my beautiful little girl 🙂

Good night all. Speak to you tomorrow.