Where to start…
In a nutshell: lost job, went to Wales, new love of crafts, health worries, possible cancer, new job, health investigations and ops, still got new job, not cancer, job confirmed after probation, put on loads of weight, exercise non existent, still a non smoker!
Yup, it’s been a wild ride!
First and foremost, health. Jan 2020 I went to the doc and said, how tired I am due to constant need for loo. I had a load of tests, and then a urology referral. September last year I had my first consultation.
I shan’t bore you with all the details, but a quick itemisation (is that a word? I don’t think so, but I’m keeping it 😁), embarrassing flow tests, ulyrasound scans, consultation, flexible cystoscopy – growth in bladder found, cat scan for growth separate to bladder, cat scan also finds swollen adrenal glands, diagnostic operation under anaesthetic, after op, a few hours of optimism, was literally thinking “time to sort out life”, then told need to wait for results, waiting, scan, consultation, no bladder cancer! Yay! tablets for overactive bladder a possibility, not good side effects, referral for adrenal glands, first consultation in May – suspect had this all my life so not worried.
Do I get any more sleep? No, I’m in exactly the same position as I have been for years… ah well, there’s still things I can try.
Paul and I were extremely lucky as we were able to stay at the little holiday cottage in Wales last September, we went on some great walks, longer and harder than before, but nowhere near able to walk up Snowdon.
Great news actually on my birthday in October, got a job! And I’ve just, last week, had my probation period completed and am a fully fledged member of virtual team! It’s been a bit of a slog learning and doing this job under our global circumstances, however, I have a job… woohoo!
With all these new job stresses and the health worries, I completely let myself slip with my healthy lifestyle. I don’t think there’s been a single evening where I haven’t had shed loads of crisps, alcohol has become a lot more prominent, and those cream liqueurs aren’t renowned for low calories!
And I’m so dog tired people. With good sleeps so rare, new job, health concerns, I am always, always just so bloody knackered!
Paul is baking loads as he’s still furloughed, breads, brownies, cookies, cakes, pastries… you get the picture.
As for exercise, well I just couldn’t be bothered. Walking was my preferred choice, it was something I could measure, how long, how quick, how many times up a hill… what with my painful heel, I just gave up. Not just on walking, but also on strength and cardio home workouts.
There was a big part of me that was thinking, “sod it, I might have cancer, why bother!” I know that’s defeatist, but there we go. I just thank my lucky stars that I didn’t give in to the pull of of fags. God knows it would have been so easy. Not sure I would have been so strong had I then been diagnosed with cancer!
Interestingly, I have never felt, and do not feel now as if I have given up on my healthier me dream, just put it on hold a bit. Hey, nothing like a challenge 😆
There was something that helped me, given me focus on something nice, I found a love of crafts! I made xmas decorations, and now make cards. Honest to God, the cards and papers I buy are so lovely I might paste them all over my walls 😆. On a serious note, this has kept me sane.
So where am I now?
Exercise – Ah, well… so now my head is getting back to where it should be, I started walking again last week, only 7.5km over 3 walks, but it’s a start, and no painful heel so far. Also started stretchy exercises a couple of weeks ago, not regular yet, but it’s a start, and so necessary for constant aching thighs (same dining chair for 50ish hours a week).
Food – our nutritious day food hasn’t changed too much, though our lunches are being tweaked gently away from sarnies back to salads. It’s really the delish crap I eat as well as the usual food. Ah dear. All those extra empty but lovely calories, at a time when my calorie expenditure is at an all time low.
So, my plan this coming week is to walk a total of 10km, cut crisps down to 3 nights, do stretches 2 times this week, keep on top of lunches.
I guess that’s me for now, I’m not going to promise nightly updates, but I will try for regular updates. The next update will have my weight on. Warn you now… no clothes fit, so I fully expect to be as heavy if not heavier than before.
I remember writing in my first post that I’m a yo-yoer, but I’m also a firm believer in cutting ourselves a bit of slack and drawing a line under what can’t be changed. Onwards and upwards.